Release, like nectar of the gods.

So I finally told them.
In all honesty, I was sort of pushed into it by circumstances beyond my control (damn Orange itemised billing invoices... *shakes fist*).
But not that I have done... It's... Wonderful.
For the first time in 6 months, 25 days and about 6 hours, I can breathe easy. It was always my intention to say, but as time dragged by, bringing with it those little incidences that change your mental point of view, I just... Didn't.
I HAD made myself a promise to say by December 31st. That was concrete, cast in stone, gospel, yadda-yadda-yadda. But I needed a... Push, Something to motivate me to do it.
Now, that isn't what I ACTUALLY got, but who cares? The deed was done.
I no longer have to hide her light under a bushel. I no longer have to act like a common criminal, shying away every time an inquisitive beam of light approaches my shrouded secret.
No longer had to endure - for that is what I did, and what I suspect she did also - long and painful seperations.

I cannot put my emotions into words.
The alst year had been the most tumultous of my life.
Rejection, hate, revulsion, disappointment, death, harm, fear, sadness... All emotions and events I have felt, or been touched by.
Love, however... Well, I'm not so sure as to the accuracy of the old adage "True love conquers all", but I can attest to this:-
I love.
It is true.
She helped me.
The events of the last few days have enabled me to begin to be what I would call a good... Other half? Boyfriend? Best friend? Call it what you will. I just hope I'm right in saying that. And I hope I'm right in believing that I can make it so much better, and that I will, now that I am able.

Please learn from my mistakes. Don't hide good things. Otherwise, bad things come to overshadow them.
You CAN shine light on this darkness, as I have ben able to do, but it is so much better - for ALL involved - if you have no darkness in the first place.

End.